ME … ‘A POLYBAG’

Today 5th June 2018 is the Tenth birth anniversary of this blog. On this day in 2009 this blog was launched, and since then, albeit slowly, this blog has been progressing and continuing with the support of all who have been associated and visited this blog time to time.

This year the World Environment Day theme is ‘Beat Plastic Pollution’!!

And this year our own country India is the host for celebration of this day World-wide.

Few years back I had penned a poem as a ‘self-narrative’ by a ‘polybag (Panni)’.

The poem was in Hindi and for today’s presentation I have got its translation into English done by my daughter Ashwini.

Keeping my write up simple and limited to this much only and once again Thanking all, I present this translation, as a post for today’s occasion here;

ME …  ‘A POLYBAG’

I am a ‘polybag’ wandering places,
Wandering just like the other members of my species are,
Spreading throughout and travelling into the unknown,
Getting ignored with no hopes of getting cared and cured
Yet I keep wishing, for someone to pick me up in their loving arms,
I wish someone would take me to my rightful ‘disposal’, the place where I belong.
I wonder where my siblings are,
Maybe they’re wretched just like me,
Maybe they too have a gruesome story to tell
Like PVC had to tell this other day;
“Oh! the ignorant Humans!
Why aren’t you saving yourselves from me?
Don’t you care about your future?
The future of you and your progeny…”
I wish you would have kept us away from your surroundings
Instead of letting I and my specie get all messed up with each other.
I myself have been through a lot,
Be it getting trapped in cluster of spikes
Or being wrapped up around the branch of a tree!
I’ve floated in the drains, muffled over cans and ducts
Just to become the culprit of everything filthy!
I am that tramp, who keeps wandering constantly,
Rotting through rivers and pools,
Ending up spreading pollution everywhere,
You ask me where I’ll be found,
I am Omnipresent I say!
Flying, crashing through nowhere
Hoping for some day ‘someone’ will come,
And take me to my ‘appropriate disposal’
Please embrace me, love me, care me
Help me to reach – ‘my final destination’
Take me where I belong and save your Habitat,
Save your mother, Oh human,
Save your nature, Save ‘mother earth’

Blessed …

Blessed are those to feel the pain
Blessed are those to be insane
Beyond the limits crazy
Beyond the rules gone,
Making self fashion proudly
With all the clothes torn
Dancing to rhythm of unheard beats
Smiling to the touch of slightest of Breeze
Blessed are those to love again,
Drinking the life and spilling the moments
And letting the heart get stained…
Blessed to laugh with lost teeths,
Blessed to walk bare feet,
Jumping climbing singing around,
Blessed to fall and roll on the ground
Blessed to feel the drops of rain,
Blessed are those who are loved again …

‘आशीर्वाद’

माँ
आँचल तेरा है समुन्दर से गहरा
किनारे की अहमियत ही कहाँ थी
तू जो है साथ मेरे माँ
मुझे बेगानों की ज़रुरत ही कहाँ थी

पापा
सपनों कि कमी न होने दी आपने
ख्वाहिशें हमारी की पूरी
खुदके सपनों से पहले देखि हमारी ख़ुशी
पापा आपके बिना ये सपनों की दुनिया है अधूरी

गुरु
खुद पे यकीन करना सिखाया
उम्मीदों कि राह पे चलना सिखाया
सही और गलत में फर्क समझा के
गुरुजी अनजाने में आपने
हमें जीना सिखाया

माँ कि अहमियत जानी हर गुज़रते पल के साथ
पापा कि अहमियत जानी हर पुरे होते ख्वाब के साथ
गुरु कि अहमियत जानी जब हर नया मकाम हासिल हुआ
आप तीनों का आशीर्वाद सदा रहे हम पे
यही है हमारी दिल से दुआ …

(19.02.17, written for College day 2017)

With Him She Was …

With him she was a princess…
“The beauty queen” he used to say…
But without him she was just
A torn piece of paper that had already a story
Written on it…
The story which she regretted the most
The story which he accepted at any cost…
With closed eyes she walked with him
He took her to places she had never been…
He made the lights brighter which used to be dim,
He made her see love which she had never seen…
She promised not to let him down
To preserve his given precious crown…
Days passed by and she became free
All her chained feelings were set at once free…
She laughed a bit a more…
She cried a bit more…
Every day he touched her heart to its core…
She forgot a thing
That she never owned the crown…
It was given to her by him
And she was letting him down…
Taken for granted was what she was doing
And no sooner she realized this thing…
Miserable was all that she was
A complete mess…a girl full of flaws…
She loved him still
And forever she will…
But he was the one deserving a bit more
He deserved the ocean and all she could offer was
Just a sea shore…
She realized she failed him…
She didn’t made the lights bright
But rather just made them dim…

Falling apart!

Just wish not to be lost
In your eyes again,
Just wish not to be hurt
Don’t want to feel that pain

It’s true that I’m hurt
But I don’t want you to know,
It’s true that I still care
But I don’t want it to show,

I left you, not because,
It was hard for me to stay,
I left you because I knew,
What you wanted- but didn’t say…

That you wanted me to leave
That you wanted our love to end,
That you wanted to say to me
You want to be just a friend!

But you don’t know how it feels,
Maybe you won’t understand,
It’s hard for me now to leave
And even to be just a ‘friend’,
Dying hard inside to tell you that
I never wished to fall apart,
To tell you that may be unknowingly-
But you have really broke my heart,

And today you are here asking me that
Why the hell am I crying alone?

I hope you know that somewhere
You are the reason,
So just don’t act unknown,

How can it be like, that,
You have not felt the touch,
The love and care – I feel for you,
May be I was wrong,
That I knew you better,
While the reality was that I never knew you,

Now it’s hard for me to be free from love,
And even hard to say,

Can’t even hide the tears
And can’t even say …

… Your love

You can show me your love
You can give me your time,
You can tell me the things
That is going in your mind

You can share what you feel,
You can tell me your truth and lies,
Please tell me how you feel,
When I am away from you miles,

I won’t make you regret,
For all love that you give me!

After he came,

So deeply did he touch her soul to it’s core
She felt loved all over again,
With each passing day he loved her more
He didn’t knew how heavenly
He was erasing her pain…

His words echoed in her heart
As he let them out gradually
He wiped away her tears apart
He made her fall in love slowly,

Longed for love all along,
All of a sudden she was getting it all
He gave her the world-served her love,
And slowly broke each painful wall,

Walls that she built around herself
To not to get hurt ever again,
But those were the walls which –
Restricted the love,

And all that was left was just the pain …

He entered through these walls into her heart
Even though there was no door to it …
He found her broken pieces, understood them
And stitched them again bit by bit,

No scars left
No pain found
How strong love can be
She only knew it now…

After he came!

Less a Body, More a Soul

There is this hurricane
Inside your mind and soul,
Which you can’t deal with
And which you can’t explain…

A feeling runs through
Like blood in your veins
Telling – you will never be whole
And you will have to feel the pain…

Some facts are worth denying
Some lies are meant to be gulped
It will make you choke
For like once in a while
But will prevent – the reality
From getting blurred …

You lose your bits
Along the path
It’s true that you will never be whole…

But the ‘end you’
At the end of the journey –
Will be less a body and more a Soul …


 

Void …

It’s neither Up nor Down
Just a straight line

Which is leading me to nowhere
And leaving me behind with just a ‘void’

Emptiness that teases me
With Memories of yours

Memories of the love that
I felt in my heart

And now it’s me who can neither cry nor smile
Because I don’t want to stop this love,
Neither I want it to start

I remember the way you smiled
And I looked in your eyes

The way you got tensed seeing me
going through all of my cries,

And all those days we loved
Without any of the lies..

Then I suddenly realized that
It was just a ‘matter’ of ‘time’,
Just a matter of time
And ‘the’ ‘past’ of mine,

Now, this void holds a place
In my heart

Where I don’t want anyone to let in
And neither detach you apart

Soul speaks …!!!

A world with chaos all over
Bodies responding to each other

Some care about what’s said
Some care about what’s heard

But ‘souls’ never ever say a word…

There may be a room
Filled with crowd,
But you never know,
When the silence would surround..

Taking you to a world
of ‘hollowness’,
Where nothing is ‘lost’
and nothing is ‘found’ …