With Him She Was …

With him she was a princess…
“The beauty queen” he used to say…
But without him she was just
A torn piece of paper that had already a story
Written on it…
The story which she regretted the most
The story which he accepted at any cost…
With closed eyes she walked with him
He took her to places she had never been…
He made the lights brighter which used to be dim,
He made her see love which she had never seen…
She promised not to let him down
To preserve his given precious crown…
Days passed by and she became free
All her chained feelings were set at once free…
She laughed a bit a more…
She cried a bit more…
Every day he touched her heart to its core…
She forgot a thing
That she never owned the crown…
It was given to her by him
And she was letting him down…
Taken for granted was what she was doing
And no sooner she realized this thing…
Miserable was all that she was
A complete mess…a girl full of flaws…
She loved him still
And forever she will…
But he was the one deserving a bit more
He deserved the ocean and all she could offer was
Just a sea shore…
She realized she failed him…
She didn’t made the lights bright
But rather just made them dim…

Falling apart!

Just wish not to be lost
In your eyes again,
Just wish not to be hurt
Don’t want to feel that pain

It’s true that I’m hurt
But I don’t want you to know,
It’s true that I still care
But I don’t want it to show,

I left you, not because,
It was hard for me to stay,
I left you because I knew,
What you wanted- but didn’t say…

That you wanted me to leave
That you wanted our love to end,
That you wanted to say to me
You want to be just a friend!

But you don’t know how it feels,
Maybe you won’t understand,
It’s hard for me now to leave
And even to be just a ‘friend’,
Dying hard inside to tell you that
I never wished to fall apart,
To tell you that may be unknowingly-
But you have really broke my heart,

And today you are here asking me that
Why the hell am I crying alone?

I hope you know that somewhere
You are the reason,
So just don’t act unknown,

How can it be like, that,
You have not felt the touch,
The love and care – I feel for you,
May be I was wrong,
That I knew you better,
While the reality was that I never knew you,

Now it’s hard for me to be free from love,
And even hard to say,

Can’t even hide the tears
And can’t even say …

After he came,

So deeply did he touch her soul to it’s core
She felt loved all over again,
With each passing day he loved her more
He didn’t knew how heavenly
He was erasing her pain…

His words echoed in her heart
As he let them out gradually
He wiped away her tears apart
He made her fall in love slowly,

Longed for love all along,
All of a sudden she was getting it all
He gave her the world-served her love,
And slowly broke each painful wall,

Walls that she built around herself
To not to get hurt ever again,
But those were the walls which –
Restricted the love,

And all that was left was just the pain …

He entered through these walls into her heart
Even though there was no door to it …
He found her broken pieces, understood them
And stitched them again bit by bit,

No scars left
No pain found
How strong love can be
She only knew it now…

After he came!

Less a Body, More a Soul

There is this hurricane
Inside your mind and soul,
Which you can’t deal with
And which you can’t explain…

A feeling runs through
Like blood in your veins
Telling – you will never be whole
And you will have to feel the pain…

Some facts are worth denying
Some lies are meant to be gulped
It will make you choke
For like once in a while
But will prevent – the reality
From getting blurred …

You lose your bits
Along the path
It’s true that you will never be whole…

But the ‘end you’
At the end of the journey –
Will be less a body and more a Soul …


Void …

It’s neither Up nor Down
Just a straight line

Which is leading me to nowhere
And leaving me behind with just a ‘void’

Emptiness that teases me
With Memories of yours

Memories of the love that
I felt in my heart

And now it’s me who can neither cry nor smile
Because I don’t want to stop this love,
Neither I want it to start

I remember the way you smiled
And I looked in your eyes

The way you got tensed seeing me
going through all of my cries,

And all those days we loved
Without any of the lies..

Then I suddenly realized that
It was just a ‘matter’ of ‘time’,
Just a matter of time
And ‘the’ ‘past’ of mine,

Now, this void holds a place
In my heart

Where I don’t want anyone to let in
And neither detach you apart

Soul speaks …!!!

A world with chaos all over
Bodies responding to each other

Some care about what’s said
Some care about what’s heard

But ‘souls’ never ever say a word…

There may be a room
Filled with crowd,
But you never know,
When the silence would surround..

Taking you to a world
of ‘hollowness’,
Where nothing is ‘lost’
and nothing is ‘found’ …

Take me back …

Take me back to
the days of my life,
when I used to smile
just for ‘me’,

take me back to
that dreamy world
where no boundaries were found
and where I felt truly free,

can’t see the truth here
its all blur around,
the more I remove the fog
the more the fog surrounds,

the reflection I see today
is not so much like ‘me’
I can feel the difference between
What I am and what I pretend to be,

With the passing days I experience
Rush and emptiness at the same time,
I try to be the
‘more of myself’
everytime …

it’s me and my mind with whom
I want to be for now,
But the more I try to be ‘me’
Is when I again get lost somehow..

Surely I learnt to differentiate
The ‘fake’ and the ‘real’
To hide the scar, even when it
didn’t heal,

but all these things just don’t matter
because now I know,
that these are just ‘things’ meant not to ‘feel’-
but just to ‘show’,

really want to go back to the days
when expectations didn’t really hurt,
back to the days –
when everyday of the year
seemed to be a ‘rebirth’ !!!

May be…

I know it’s still the heart of mine,
That wishes for you to be around

I know its never gonna happen
That I will search for you near and you will be found

May be I am thinking too much at this time
May be you are the only one I need for now,
May be it’s the touch that brings me close,
May be it’s the feeling I don’t wanna lose anyhow,

Feels to be complete when near
Feels to be insecure when far
Feels like it won’t last for ever
But I still don’t want to fall apart…

Feels like I was nothing for you
But for me you really meant
I tried stopping you from going away
But you still left me and went…

Feels like I am going a step away from myself every time
And neither coming near to you
But just left far behind…

I know situations are not like
As I wanted them to be…

Maybe you were always around
Maybe I couldn’t ever see …..